Woke up early in the morning just to find myself still half asleep! Haha. Left my hse at 8am to meet manong at 9am and meeting ling n company at 10am. Such good planner haha. Caught a cold while on the way to meet manong haha luckily there were still some med left at home. Anyway effort!!! Hope it gets through to your blur mind. Haha.

Just got to knw something from ling today n thought it was rather disappointing but hope it's nt the same for me. If it is, haha GG LOL!!!

Managed to wake up on time to play bball wif ernest before it rains just nw. Fun indeed, sports for life, keep fit. I'm nt like before!!! Slim le hor!!! Haha!

Cca tmr again!!! Tiring!!!

Great day indeed. Jun Wei finally came to our church today. Though we stayed back for ball games and it rained, but it was still kinda fun haha. Didnt go and buy the NUM flip flop cos no one wana go plus i'm really tired this few days. Been sleeping really late haha. Anyway after the ball games I acc jun wei to cwp and there was a last day sales going on and I bought a everlast flip flop at 17 bucks. 3 bucks cheaper but doesnt looks as durable. Anyway hopefully it wont wear off that soon like my surfer paradise's one haha.

It's really funny looking at wad mr and mrs leong post in facebook and of course, the gal who was named after me by the leong couple lol.

Just when I noticed I'm "on sales" on someone's blog lol. Sound so weird but it's kinda true? Well went out wif joshua n his friends, pretty awkward and photos taken are really unglam lol n it's already posted!!! Cant do anything to it nw. Anyway spent the whole day wif joshua before going for cell. Manage to shoot a few basketball shot before gyming. There'll be chances to play again tmr! Exercise!

Just came back from strings and was so happy tht the new pics were uploaded but yea maybe cos I'm just forgetful or insensitive that I went to tag pics for my frenz think he/she may want it too but ended up getting scolded for being self centered and wif VUGLAR!!! It's e first time!!! Tht's it! Buay ta han!!! Happily doing something for some1 and yet I was actually being insensitive. Well forget it den. Cant upload many pic I guess. Haha keeping it to myself to avoid unwanted trouble. Oh well... New lesson learnt haha.

CF FOC just ended!!!! Fun indeed haha. Got to meet a lot of new faces as well as familiar ones. Anyway I've been really busy this few weeks and hopefully I can have more time to play basketball. Haha!

Today marks the three days I had in student care corner. It was indeed a good experience. It's also becos thru the care corner tht I got to know joey who's from CO. Well at least now I'm starting to attend their practices. Chiong & chiong!!! Strings ensemble and chinese orchestra. Let's see how good I am. Haha. A great chance to test myself.

Well I'm remember the faces of the children. They were sweet and cute. Though it's not easy working with kids but yea, they're lovely :)

My crumpler got a fully red shoulder pad!!! Finally own one crumpler myself. Not very use to it yet but well haha it'll be great to have one.

Finally, got work today! Though 3 hrs and 3 days nia but better than nth. It's still considered as I have worked. It's a good exposure too. Hmm well waiting for andy to come my house now. Wonder what to wear later! Slightly nervous haha.

Thought I wasnt affected at all but somehow, whenever i'm alone, I'll still automatically recall the past. It's sort of pity her but I dono why haha. Partly pity partly misses haha. Anyway results'll be out this friday!!! Haha finally. Hopefully this time round I'll be able to pull my cumulative gpa all the way to 3.5!!!

Attended CAC programme ytd. Haha. Right after a slight fall back the previous day, which is during the day of the programme, I got selected as the group leader. Wonder why she keep asking me to be the leader haha. But well it's a good way to once again, practise my leadership skills. There were just four of us from bpmc chinese side, two to a team and one from each team is a leader, how good can it be haha. Anyway except for the worship, everything were pretty interesting and dinner was absolutely delicious haha. A great day indeed.

Right after church today, I went to the IT fair with joshua to buy printer and t shirts from Topman. Didnt manage to get back to bpmc for ball games due to the large crowds of people which ended up in paths leading to the mrt station are all closed. Nevertheless, it was still a great day haha :)

Strings of life :) Plan was to inform them tht I wana quit but yet I held back. Just feel it's getting interesting all of a sudden. Well I guess I'll stay again :) Anyway, it wasnt easy to bring the real mei lina to NPS and now wad happened? Nvr come also nvr inform. MIA. Well up to her to decide wad she wants ba.

Didnt I say we need a talk? Fancy telling me we could meet over on fri which is today but suddenly tell me u cant make it. Why didnt u tell me u cant when i told u i'll go fetch u after ur work and have dinner tgt. Seriously, I'm starting to take "Mei Lina" words into considerations. Am I really not being gentleman enough? I'm alrdy suffocating here, hello??? Let's get it done with tmr. Hopefully.

Come to think of it, this holiday is pretty much filled with time spent tgt wif e other 2 musketeers, playing basketball & a little bit of training haha.

Things haven been getting anywhere recently. Come to think of it, we knew each other since the ending of secondary 3. Been struggling alot, advices heard and took into considerations. No close common friends, I cant even get the slightest bits of wad u're thinking. It's just like a suicide bomb. I have a choice this fri. I know I wont be able to take it if it's a negative answer, being too pessimistic m I? How long will it drag if I don do it nw? Carrying this burden wherever I go, why not let it out all at once. Though it may be hurtful, too hard to accept the fact but yet, it may always be the best way than having everything being dragged. Whatever the outcome is, it'll be the best way I suppose :)

I'm always in your priority u said? :) Glad to hear that but really hope u can use ur actions to prove me that. Well, I trying my best to be more understanding towards you and I just hope you could feel it too. A few more months more n u'll be in the uni while i'll be in my last year n poly and going to NS after that. Though we're really just friends but if it's possible, I don wish this factor will be a hindrance btw us. Nevertheless, I'll try my best to get into local uni :)

Always looking forward to church since the beginning of the holiday. It's great to be back in Lishi. Once again the three musketeers went out straight after church with their soldiers. Astons at 6 ave, it's the economical version of Botak Jones haha. Well three of us went to play pool and arcade while the others left us. Fun indeed. Haha. Well it's great to hear ppl telling me I slimmed down alot haha. The next goal is converting these fats to muscles w/o protein powder I hope. Haha.

Class outing on last thurs was fun even though there were only 9 of us. Haha. Left earlier for STRINGS quartet practice. Hmm compared to the practices so far, I guess this is the most efficient le ba. Just when I feel like stopping playing the cello SIGH!

Well nth much to say, It's been the same few things on my mind since the last few months. It's been awhile. Hope something can be done :)

Basketball in the morning and shopping in the afternoon. My friday was planned nicely. Though part of it didnt appear to be wad I expected but yesh at least was able to accompany our dearest ill jun wei home haha. Manage to buy the berms I wanted at last and checked out the crumpler bags. Got things done today. Now comes the plan for the next week.

Congraz to you. Heard you even went on to the stage. Feel proud of you haha. Finally going to uni....

I finally couldnt take it, I sparked off the fire! Shucks! I tried, tried to be more understanding towards you but I was never your priority. Not even once I guess? Hopefully not. Gonna get back your results tmr? I equally worried as well. I hope u will do well too and be it good or bad, I hope you could give me a call and maybe, share your burden or good news with me face to face. And maybe den, I could tell u hw I feel and maybe know how u feel bout me. If it's negative, at least I can take this holiday to heal instead of always getting emotional over you.

"Mei Lina" said I'm just being toyed, I tried not to believe. Always treated you as a good friend. Truths are in fact always painful.

Well I hope I'll be able to see u tmr.

Results will be out this fri for her. Told her that I'll be there if in any case she needs some1 by her side after her results. Be it good or bad. From the looks of it, usually ppl only needs some1 by their side when they gotten something out of their expectation but yes, I want u to score and I know u can do it. Of course this would means, u'll be celebrating wif ur classmates. I thought maybe this fri would be a chance for me to tell u how I feel. That's if you wana share your good news with me face to face on fri :)
How long is it going to drag I seriously dono but I know the faster I let u know, u wont be snatched away but that is if u have feelings for me. Complicated. It all depends on fri I guess?

Should I say I will try my best to understand you or should I say why cant u be more straightforward instead of keep ignoring my msg. Sigh. Wadeva it is, it's just a matter of time now is it? Trying my best to tolerate it but how long more? The moment you see my blog, I guess that's the end. Must be really angry wif wad u see arent u? But I cant tell u everything, for that'll only break the friendship even faster. Let it be den.

Boring holiday indeed, plans failed since cca starting soon. Irritating. This time round i seriously feel like quitting. Wad for play the cello when u're not even considered a musicians and u're not happy at all playing it. My 7th year now. Everything seems so meaningless now.

Great day today. Had lunch wif jie ying, joshua, norman and WILSON! Haha. It was a really touching lunch today haha. Finally he's willing to tag around wif us. Had a great chat and hopefully he'll be the fifth person haha. Currently there's four in our clique including me haha. Things gonna get better n exciting in church :)

Anyway, just when I thought it would be best to give up, since the fact you always ignore and always the same excuses, always busy, u replied. Always at the moment when i'm on the verge of giving up that u appear. It's getting so ... wadeva. It's hard to treat it as if nth happens. It've already started, hard to stop. Not something that u want it to end and it can end immediately.